To share...

Oh how I wish I could share what is in my mind, in my soul and heart. How I wish I could wrap up the worlds inside me and gift them to all those around me so they could see the beautiful that I do. How desperately I cling to this wish, how I will do anything to hand over the keys to the kingdom so others can see what it like to construct lands as you wish. I ask myself what does it take, how am I going to share, what the words are going to look like, when they will finally appear and who will read them and find the joy in their own life. I ask myself over and over and over again these same questions, on repeat like the sun rising and setting are these questions. I dream that my nightmares have them and rush into rescue the words inside me but loose everything as soon as I wake. Oh what trouble it is to imagine and not share what the imagination longs to turn into. Shall I surrender and let go of this need to share or fight that I can overcome the need to share?